Reminiscing on the jubilant days so far extinct.
I now reach for the right words, but these lips won't speak.
What happened to the laughter, affection, and unconditional love?
I thought you were a gift from the heavens above.
How we were able to overcome the disagreements so effortlessly.
Does this ever cross your mind, or is it just me?
Still, I love with a heart broken into a thousand pieces.
I gather them all together, but the excruciating pain never ceases.
How could you hurt me when I live for you day in and day out?
Nobody ever taught me that this is what love's supposed to be about.
Somewhere in the chaos, I lost sight of me.
The way I walk, talk, think, and the way things used to be.
I realized a few months ago, I don't know myself anymore.
My whole being shivers at the thought of the unexpected you have in store.
My solution is to end it all myself and show my life discontinued.
Then I realized you stole my life, a disgraceful venue.
Lost my sense of direction and I just don't know where to turn.
I think about our relationship and all that I've learned.
I've been betrayed by the enemy himself.
Though I lack material, my heart and my soul are my wealth.
I called on the Lord with all my might.
I basked in His presence and vowed to fight.
Fought for my purpose and rediscovered myself.
Vowed to God to take repossession of my wealth!
Determination so strong in my spirit that I left with the clothes on my back.
Never to look behind me and didn't even think to pack.
I've found the love I once sought and it's so true.
I'm better this way, and there's one way I'll never give up on you.
I'll always pray for you to begin to love yourself.
That soon one day you'll even rediscover your wealth.
Though you hurt me so bad, I still will always love you.
Just not enough to continue to take the abuse and I thank God for the new!
I have no regrets for I've learned a valuable lesson.
No matter what anyone does, they deserve to be forgiven.
Necessary for one’s own freedom.
I now reach for the right words, but these lips won't speak.
What happened to the laughter, affection, and unconditional love?
I thought you were a gift from the heavens above.
How we were able to overcome the disagreements so effortlessly.
Does this ever cross your mind, or is it just me?
Still, I love with a heart broken into a thousand pieces.
I gather them all together, but the excruciating pain never ceases.
How could you hurt me when I live for you day in and day out?
Nobody ever taught me that this is what love's supposed to be about.
Somewhere in the chaos, I lost sight of me.
The way I walk, talk, think, and the way things used to be.
I realized a few months ago, I don't know myself anymore.
My whole being shivers at the thought of the unexpected you have in store.
My solution is to end it all myself and show my life discontinued.
Then I realized you stole my life, a disgraceful venue.
Lost my sense of direction and I just don't know where to turn.
I think about our relationship and all that I've learned.
I've been betrayed by the enemy himself.
Though I lack material, my heart and my soul are my wealth.
I called on the Lord with all my might.
I basked in His presence and vowed to fight.
Fought for my purpose and rediscovered myself.
Vowed to God to take repossession of my wealth!
Determination so strong in my spirit that I left with the clothes on my back.
Never to look behind me and didn't even think to pack.
I've found the love I once sought and it's so true.
I'm better this way, and there's one way I'll never give up on you.
I'll always pray for you to begin to love yourself.
That soon one day you'll even rediscover your wealth.
Though you hurt me so bad, I still will always love you.
Just not enough to continue to take the abuse and I thank God for the new!
I have no regrets for I've learned a valuable lesson.
No matter what anyone does, they deserve to be forgiven.
Necessary for one’s own freedom.
By: Kenya Mack
Blog: kenyamack.blogspot.com
Twitter: @KenyaMack
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7 comments:
i cried reading this. i hate my husband for hitting me. u give me hope.
this piece is marvelous 4real..... touching
Thank you so much!
#1Anonymous: Be strong. It only gets worse, so do what you have to do to free you! I know it's hard, especially when it's your husband. Love doesn't abuse though. You're welcome to e-mail me if you need help. I can give you some information. kmack81@live.com
I loved this!!! I have felt exactly like this before and I felt like you were speaking my own thoughts good job! :)
WELL WRITTEN KENYA! THIS IS SO REAL...I CRIED TOO...I HAVE BEEN THERE AND STRENGTH & COURAGE MUST BE YOUR BEST FRIENDS!
powerful.. necessary.. and on time for someone.
Peace
THANK YOU!!!!!
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