Tuesday, November 24, 2009

"Death Note"



Nov. 24, 2009

My love, I won't force this on you any longer. You are the complete opposite of what you portrayed yourself as. I've tried to rekindle, but your constant lies have swindled our love in a downward spiral. Today I'm your world, and tomorrow I don't exist. I've had thoughts and vivid dreams of me slitting my wrist. Maybe when I'm gone, you'll regret ignoring my presence.

A little bit of liquor with a dose of medicine will make this pain disappear. I've worried my last worry and wiped away my last tears. I smile on the outside, but I'm hurting within. Misery has brought upon suicidal thoughts. I've been the puppet that you've strung along, but it’s not your fault. I've allowed you to treat me this way since day one. I guess, deep down, I wished you would've changed. Pain has become my best friend, depression became my girl, and your love for me has become nothing more than a distant memory. I'm writing this letter with my blood, regretting the day we met, sealing it with a kiss and signing off with my last breath.


Goodbye.

P.S.

I HATE that I'm in LOVE with you. I hope these words circle in your mind for the remainder of your life.

12 comments:

BROaDWaY JiM said...

DAMN!
This ish got me feeling some type of way, smh. WOW!

Summer B "TopShelfDiva" said...

I'm reading this as I'm walking and I just had to stop in my tracks! Standing in the middle of the street jaw dropped & mouth open. This is EXTREMELY DEEP!!!

Torrie said...

Yo Joe, u r the real deal . Please. Keep it coming. I would like to do something new wit u. As a writer look and listen to people situations. Like me I fell in love a 1st sight. Can u write a piece called LOVE @ 1st sight for me. And also ask people to request titles and ideas to u.

Torrie said...

Yo Joe, u r the real deal . Please. Keep it coming. I would like to do something new wit u. As a writer look and listen to people situations. Like me I fell in love a 1st sight. Can u write a piece called LOVE @ 1st sight for me. And also ask people to request titles and ideas to u.

Kisha Green said...

Wow! That was powerful! The emotions being conveyed were realistic and you took me there! Kudos! Job Well done!

analog.lady said...

Joe, dis ish right here will stain a memory indeed!!!

jessica said...

joe i really like this piece right here.... keep it coming...

Miss Chi said...

Very powerful and raw emotions.I feel this one. Niiice.

Kenya Mack said...

Pure emotion here. Undeniable pain in these words. Love the writing, but I'm with Jim...I feel some type of way, lol.

LadiiDestiny said...

Nothin is better thenn the TRUTH**

LadiiDestiny said...

So now what is wrong, with these feelings ohh so strong.
Where's the understanding for me
where's the we will forever be..
Why shud u be bothered?
You don't love me any longer?
Why are there so many pauses and possible feelings of regret
I don't feel you whole mind is in it!
So now there's pressure and things are tight does it make sence that we begin to fight?
Joyful, jubilant and carefree
How sad my heart feels our bond is Dwindeling.
I don't want to feel so bothered
I dislike our distance
How unlike you to be so SPITEFUL
So high and mighty Mr. Know it all why ask a question if u are in no need of an answer.
Go to sleep to that so that we can truly rest,
Yet you insist on doing things your way "its best"!
Good luck mr. iLL be ok.
Ill be doin same tryin new things and allowing myself to be trained.....

Anonymous said...

The LeBron James of literature...

that's talent... period.

- Dame